.new year.

i had a s14 gathering at glasshouse fish and co on the second last day of 2005. i was excited about it because it had been ages since i last met them and i had the chance to sit at the upper level of the glasshouse. haha. when we went in, i realised the upper floor wasnt as amazing as i thought. pretty normal. the food was ok. no raisins in the rice??? at the end of the day, a few of us went over to jaja's house for a stayover. we watched coach carter. it was a real life movie. pretty inspiring. this quote left the deepest impression on me.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

after that, we started playing card games. the 4 cards game that jaja taught us was damn exciting especially when we drew a King card. and we had learnt how to be peeping toms. oops... her dog, patchy is soooo cute. haha... i want to have a dog too. =)

in the end, only vince, wenhan, goi and i survived through the night. we left her house very early in the morning and ate breakfast. i slept from the moment i stepped into my house till 730pm just now. woah!!!! i had slept half of my last day of 2005 away.

it's finally 1st jan 2006. 2005 has been a pretty bad year for me. the pretty screwed up As, tea session with the vice principal, was close to dropping a subject, family stuff and inter personal relationships. all these crap are finally gone. let them be gone with the super duper heavy thunderstorm this afternoon. (how did i know when i was sleeping at that time? it was so heavy that it woke me up to close the windows in my room) i am just glad that it is finally over. i can only see myself 6 months from now. i will be working and my first day of work is 9 days away. i want to start to learn driving and guitar before my new school life begins. going on holidays with friends again. yeah!!!! that means i need to start saving all over again.

i want to stay happy and stop messing up my life. cheers everyone!

"embrace the new year"